Thursday, April 29, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
quickie
Hi all
Just a quick one, am feeling like shit with the flu, and need to get to bed so I am rested well for tomorrow, which I know is going to be a hectic day!
Still haven't updated my CV, and will tell you the reason for wanting to update my CV when I post all the happenings of the last week and a half, hopefully tomorrow. Will have to get up early and finish my CV in the morning though, because I HAVE to have it ready tomorrow! Excitement!
Other than that, had a fabulous long weekend with my two best friends, Nico and Deon.
Will update shortly! Time for a restless sleep with a runny nose and tight chest...
Night all!
Mxxx
Just a quick one, am feeling like shit with the flu, and need to get to bed so I am rested well for tomorrow, which I know is going to be a hectic day!
Still haven't updated my CV, and will tell you the reason for wanting to update my CV when I post all the happenings of the last week and a half, hopefully tomorrow. Will have to get up early and finish my CV in the morning though, because I HAVE to have it ready tomorrow! Excitement!
Other than that, had a fabulous long weekend with my two best friends, Nico and Deon.
Will update shortly! Time for a restless sleep with a runny nose and tight chest...
Night all!
Mxxx
Monday, April 19, 2010
The truth hurts
I haven't posted in a couple of days, for several reasons I suppose. I'll blame it on "writers block" :)
I never met up with the hot manhunt boy, but you never know, maybe one day.
Went out to Ray on Saturday, had lunch with him and collected Kathy's Avon order from him, but he definitely realised that the atmosphere was a little stiff (not stiff like a hardon in my jeans, stiff as in I had something to say, something not pleasant). He even said to me at a stage, 'you seem a little pensive today'. *sigh* I didn't have the balls to tell him, yet.
Work seems to be getting busier by the day, and I am wondering whether this rat race ever slows down... I guess not. That's not good news for me, because I want to take a day's leave on Monday. Tuesday is a public holiday here in South Africa, so want to try and make a long weekend of it.
Mom asked me if I wanted to go to my aunt's 60th birthday on Saturday, but ok, let's think about this clearly: A bunch of old family members, all getting pissed out of their skulls, and making jokes about womans' fannies and how "nice" that thing is. OMG I'd rather die. I was hinting at my mom when I spoke to her that I want to come visit for the weekend, but they are leaving to go on holiday that Saturday, going straight to joburg in the morning, and then leaving for Umhlanga on Sunday morning very early... So, for a moment, I though oh well, another weekend at home, another weekend where I wouldn't have an excuse not to see Ray.
Then, my trusted and dear friend, without knowing it, came to my rescue. I received a text about 40 minutes ago, from him asking me whether I wouldn't look after "the kids" this weekend while they are away on holiday. Of course! I told him that I might want to take Monday off, to make it a long weekend, and if they would mind my staying the Sunday and possibly the Monday night too. He said that was fine :) Now just to convince my boss tomorrow that I need Monday off...
Oh, the kids are not real children, that will be the Daschund, Schindler, my favorite dog in the entire world, and then the two Dalmations, and the cat, and Pietie, the Parot (if the old lady is leaving him at home and not taking him with her). Hmmm, it's going to be great sleeping with the big sausage next to me again, if only for a couple of nights.
This is the same friend who offered me his iPhone, once he receives his new phone, but now the phone company is full of stories. Shame, I must look like a real nob, because I've been nagging him about the status of him getting his new phone for the last couple of days, and he is getting frustrated with the phone company. Sorry bud, I'll lay off the nagging now ;)
It also happens to be the friend who said something to me on skype today, which, at first, touched a nerve, but when I really thought about it, I realised that he had read me like a book, and hit the proverbial nail on the head. I won't go into too much detail on how the conversation got to this point, but the sentence that hit the nerve was 'D: you only get a hardon for twinks and hunks'.... .... .... Silence... ... ... And then, I re-read it, and realised, he was 100% correct. I do only get a hardon for hunks, smooth twinks, horny 20 - 25 year old hormone driven boys.
My question is this: Am I just being full of crap, or is it a matter of preference? What if I am too fussy about who I want to have sex with? What if I really do prefer younger guys? Should I be more receptive to guys older than me? Am I living in a dream world, dreaming that one day I'll have a hot, muscular prince, galloping towards me, shirtless, on his white stallion, the rider being just as hung as ridden?
I have conflicting thoughts about this. On the one hand, I feel that I am way too full of crap, and that I am going through life with a tunnel vision, and not opening my thoughts and perspectives up to other possibilities. On the other hand, I feel selfish, and think that if that is what I prefer, why settle for anything less? Then, I ask myself the question: Do I maybe prefer younger guys because subconsciously I have a problem with my OWN age? Damn I need a psychologist! :) I think the answer is not necessarily black and white, but rather grey, and that there lies a little bit of truth in all of the above. The truth hurts, after all. What is certain is that he was right, and perhaps I needed to feel that little stab of something touching a nerve, to open up my eyes to greater possibilities...
OK, enough of that, on a lighter note, I have been emailing back and forth with Mr Sydney boy, and we may just become great friends. I have offered to go out with him for dinner one evening, and recommended some places for him to see during his short stay here in Joburg next month. Pity he wouldn't be here over the weekend, so I could be tourguide and show him the places that the normal tourist wouldn't necessarily see. I love this country, I love this city. It's got so many hidden gems. Perhaps I should become a full time gay tour guide. Damn, that must be LIFE! Hmmm, I shouldn't think such things just before bed time. I'll probably be lying awake half the night again pondering this idea....
Well, that's my life for the day in a nutshell. Hope you all have a fabilous evening/day (depending on your time zone;)).
Kisses!
Mxxx
I never met up with the hot manhunt boy, but you never know, maybe one day.
Went out to Ray on Saturday, had lunch with him and collected Kathy's Avon order from him, but he definitely realised that the atmosphere was a little stiff (not stiff like a hardon in my jeans, stiff as in I had something to say, something not pleasant). He even said to me at a stage, 'you seem a little pensive today'. *sigh* I didn't have the balls to tell him, yet.
Work seems to be getting busier by the day, and I am wondering whether this rat race ever slows down... I guess not. That's not good news for me, because I want to take a day's leave on Monday. Tuesday is a public holiday here in South Africa, so want to try and make a long weekend of it.
Mom asked me if I wanted to go to my aunt's 60th birthday on Saturday, but ok, let's think about this clearly: A bunch of old family members, all getting pissed out of their skulls, and making jokes about womans' fannies and how "nice" that thing is. OMG I'd rather die. I was hinting at my mom when I spoke to her that I want to come visit for the weekend, but they are leaving to go on holiday that Saturday, going straight to joburg in the morning, and then leaving for Umhlanga on Sunday morning very early... So, for a moment, I though oh well, another weekend at home, another weekend where I wouldn't have an excuse not to see Ray.
Then, my trusted and dear friend, without knowing it, came to my rescue. I received a text about 40 minutes ago, from him asking me whether I wouldn't look after "the kids" this weekend while they are away on holiday. Of course! I told him that I might want to take Monday off, to make it a long weekend, and if they would mind my staying the Sunday and possibly the Monday night too. He said that was fine :) Now just to convince my boss tomorrow that I need Monday off...
Oh, the kids are not real children, that will be the Daschund, Schindler, my favorite dog in the entire world, and then the two Dalmations, and the cat, and Pietie, the Parot (if the old lady is leaving him at home and not taking him with her). Hmmm, it's going to be great sleeping with the big sausage next to me again, if only for a couple of nights.
This is the same friend who offered me his iPhone, once he receives his new phone, but now the phone company is full of stories. Shame, I must look like a real nob, because I've been nagging him about the status of him getting his new phone for the last couple of days, and he is getting frustrated with the phone company. Sorry bud, I'll lay off the nagging now ;)
It also happens to be the friend who said something to me on skype today, which, at first, touched a nerve, but when I really thought about it, I realised that he had read me like a book, and hit the proverbial nail on the head. I won't go into too much detail on how the conversation got to this point, but the sentence that hit the nerve was 'D: you only get a hardon for twinks and hunks'.... .... .... Silence... ... ... And then, I re-read it, and realised, he was 100% correct. I do only get a hardon for hunks, smooth twinks, horny 20 - 25 year old hormone driven boys.
My question is this: Am I just being full of crap, or is it a matter of preference? What if I am too fussy about who I want to have sex with? What if I really do prefer younger guys? Should I be more receptive to guys older than me? Am I living in a dream world, dreaming that one day I'll have a hot, muscular prince, galloping towards me, shirtless, on his white stallion, the rider being just as hung as ridden?
I have conflicting thoughts about this. On the one hand, I feel that I am way too full of crap, and that I am going through life with a tunnel vision, and not opening my thoughts and perspectives up to other possibilities. On the other hand, I feel selfish, and think that if that is what I prefer, why settle for anything less? Then, I ask myself the question: Do I maybe prefer younger guys because subconsciously I have a problem with my OWN age? Damn I need a psychologist! :) I think the answer is not necessarily black and white, but rather grey, and that there lies a little bit of truth in all of the above. The truth hurts, after all. What is certain is that he was right, and perhaps I needed to feel that little stab of something touching a nerve, to open up my eyes to greater possibilities...
OK, enough of that, on a lighter note, I have been emailing back and forth with Mr Sydney boy, and we may just become great friends. I have offered to go out with him for dinner one evening, and recommended some places for him to see during his short stay here in Joburg next month. Pity he wouldn't be here over the weekend, so I could be tourguide and show him the places that the normal tourist wouldn't necessarily see. I love this country, I love this city. It's got so many hidden gems. Perhaps I should become a full time gay tour guide. Damn, that must be LIFE! Hmmm, I shouldn't think such things just before bed time. I'll probably be lying awake half the night again pondering this idea....
Well, that's my life for the day in a nutshell. Hope you all have a fabilous evening/day (depending on your time zone;)).
Kisses!
Mxxx
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Excuses
Here I am again, tried getting to bed early, since I was up until after 11 last night chatting online and reading some of the hot blogs I found in the last couple of days. But once again the insomnia kicks in, and I find myself blogging again.
Things at work are slowly getting better, but there is still the odd occasion during the day that I just want to pack up my things and fuck off. Good thing that I have to pay a car and rent, otherwise I probably would have left already.
There's this HOT guy chatting to me on Manhunt, and he is ever so keen to meet! Perhaps Friday evening? It would only be for sex though, and we both know it. Damn, he's goodlooking, smooth, hung like a horse, and very keen to be fucked and to return the favour. How can I say no?
Ray sent me an email today asking why I am not returning his emails. I was so busy at work that I honestly didn't even have time, and he was like 'will I still see you this weekend'. And I sort of feel bad, because I really want to see him, and I have to get Kathy's Avon order from him, but on the other hadn I also just want to be alone this weekend, and sleep until late and walk around naked and just chill, watch movies, play some games. Apart from wanting to fuck the hot boy on Manhunt, I really don't feel like seeing people this weekend...
I also thought about telling Ray that we'll only have friendship, and as stupid as it might seem, I think it will be for the better, otherwise I'll just end up hurting him and feeling like a cunt. I can't see myself being with him unless he gets his own transport and reliable income. If I had saved the money I had spent on him in only two weekends, it would have been a quarter of my plane ticket to america already. Fuck that!
Got a call from JS this morning at work. Damn it was nice hearing his voice again! But the phone cut off while we were still talking, and I didn't get the time to call him back yet. Will give him a call over the weekend and maybe arrange to meet up the weekend after. Would be nice to see him again. Still think I have a slight crush on the guy :)
I was wondering about something... I realised that ALL of my previous relationships had started around this time of the year. So I was thinking, is it because of the seasons? That everybody wants to be with somebody before the winter starts? (For my followers in the Northern Hemisphere, it is Autumn here now). Or has it got to do with the general mood that everybody is in during this time of the year? Come to think of it, I was conceived during this time of the year as well, being born in January (together with the other 80% of my family who's birthdays are in December and mostly January)... Leave your comments and tell me what YOU think the reason is for this? Would be interesting to get other people's thoughts.
Briefly spoke to Deon on Skype today, and he hasn't received his new phone yet, so no iPhone for me (yet) :(:(:( Once again, I don't want to nagg him and be a pain in the ass about it, but I just can't help myself, the excitement of getting an iPhone is just too much! (yeah yeah, I've always been a bit of a gadget geek, especially if it is Apple branded :))
So I have these two very good friends, one who used to work with us, and another that still works with me (I'll refer to them as A&A, since both their names start with an A) They want us three to go to America together, to do Atlanta, Vegas and Florida, but its going to cost me a shit load of money! We're talking 40 000 Rands! (That roughly equates to about £4000 or $5500). I'd rather just go to Orlando, sail with Ray (my cousin, not the other Ray), and then buy a mac book or something and come back with loads of sexy underwear and DVD's and sex toys and porn. (Can you imagine the eyes of the customs officials when they scan my luggage upon returning!?! HAHAHA)
Surely I'll have a lot more freedom and time for hot boys when I go on my own as well, as opposed to with friends, where I'll be constrained to do what they want to do, and wouldn't be able to tell them: 'I'm just going out to go fuck some hot boy ass'. Buying all the stuff I want to buy in America would also be troublesome with friends around, even if I had the money to if I went on the bigger trip... Better speak to A&A soon to tell them I want to go alone, so I don't hold them back from planning their trip. Not sure what excuse I'll use though... They always have an answer for everything... *sigh*
Well, let me go try and sleep again.
Kisses!
Mxxx
Things at work are slowly getting better, but there is still the odd occasion during the day that I just want to pack up my things and fuck off. Good thing that I have to pay a car and rent, otherwise I probably would have left already.
There's this HOT guy chatting to me on Manhunt, and he is ever so keen to meet! Perhaps Friday evening? It would only be for sex though, and we both know it. Damn, he's goodlooking, smooth, hung like a horse, and very keen to be fucked and to return the favour. How can I say no?
Ray sent me an email today asking why I am not returning his emails. I was so busy at work that I honestly didn't even have time, and he was like 'will I still see you this weekend'. And I sort of feel bad, because I really want to see him, and I have to get Kathy's Avon order from him, but on the other hadn I also just want to be alone this weekend, and sleep until late and walk around naked and just chill, watch movies, play some games. Apart from wanting to fuck the hot boy on Manhunt, I really don't feel like seeing people this weekend...
I also thought about telling Ray that we'll only have friendship, and as stupid as it might seem, I think it will be for the better, otherwise I'll just end up hurting him and feeling like a cunt. I can't see myself being with him unless he gets his own transport and reliable income. If I had saved the money I had spent on him in only two weekends, it would have been a quarter of my plane ticket to america already. Fuck that!
Got a call from JS this morning at work. Damn it was nice hearing his voice again! But the phone cut off while we were still talking, and I didn't get the time to call him back yet. Will give him a call over the weekend and maybe arrange to meet up the weekend after. Would be nice to see him again. Still think I have a slight crush on the guy :)
I was wondering about something... I realised that ALL of my previous relationships had started around this time of the year. So I was thinking, is it because of the seasons? That everybody wants to be with somebody before the winter starts? (For my followers in the Northern Hemisphere, it is Autumn here now). Or has it got to do with the general mood that everybody is in during this time of the year? Come to think of it, I was conceived during this time of the year as well, being born in January (together with the other 80% of my family who's birthdays are in December and mostly January)... Leave your comments and tell me what YOU think the reason is for this? Would be interesting to get other people's thoughts.
Briefly spoke to Deon on Skype today, and he hasn't received his new phone yet, so no iPhone for me (yet) :(:(:( Once again, I don't want to nagg him and be a pain in the ass about it, but I just can't help myself, the excitement of getting an iPhone is just too much! (yeah yeah, I've always been a bit of a gadget geek, especially if it is Apple branded :))
So I have these two very good friends, one who used to work with us, and another that still works with me (I'll refer to them as A&A, since both their names start with an A) They want us three to go to America together, to do Atlanta, Vegas and Florida, but its going to cost me a shit load of money! We're talking 40 000 Rands! (That roughly equates to about £4000 or $5500). I'd rather just go to Orlando, sail with Ray (my cousin, not the other Ray), and then buy a mac book or something and come back with loads of sexy underwear and DVD's and sex toys and porn. (Can you imagine the eyes of the customs officials when they scan my luggage upon returning!?! HAHAHA)
Surely I'll have a lot more freedom and time for hot boys when I go on my own as well, as opposed to with friends, where I'll be constrained to do what they want to do, and wouldn't be able to tell them: 'I'm just going out to go fuck some hot boy ass'. Buying all the stuff I want to buy in America would also be troublesome with friends around, even if I had the money to if I went on the bigger trip... Better speak to A&A soon to tell them I want to go alone, so I don't hold them back from planning their trip. Not sure what excuse I'll use though... They always have an answer for everything... *sigh*
Well, let me go try and sleep again.
Kisses!
Mxxx
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
First Follower
OMG, this day just keeps getting better! At a point today I thought I just wanted to die, but got home and its been getting better and better since I arrived.
As I do when I arrive home, I take of my work trousers, and read my emails sitting in my boxer briefs, which usually results in my getting hard over some hot pictures or something I received in my inbox. Today was a little different though...
I was pleasantly surprised to see that I had a comment on my previous post... Hmm, who could that be? At the speed of light, I opened my blogger, and found a post by a handsome young guy from Scotland. A second later I looked up at my followers, and sure as hell, THERE HE WAS! MY FIRST FOLLOWER! YAYYYYY!!!! :)
I started reading Eddie's blog, and boy oh boy, this boy can write some gripping stuff! As I do when discovering new blogs, I start reading from the first post, and then back as they were posted. His very first post had me gripped, and once again, a young guy, going through pretty must the same shit I had to endure in high school, I was just mesmerised.
Will be reading though his posts as time permits.
Anyway, so then I returned to reading my email, and found an email from my very good friend, Craig. The subject line had me curious immediately, and only read "FYI".
Hmmm, what could this be? My first though was that I got my ops back on irc. Nope wasn't that. He had posted me a conversation from an irc chat, from a nick called "playfun" hmmmm, who could that be!?!
Reading the email, the first line said : " are you still in contact with My name"
Hmmm, that's weird
So it turns out that this guy I sort of had a crush on about a year and a half ago (maybe 2 years) that had gone to Cape Town, had contacted Craig, and wanted to know if Craig still had contact with me.
Off course Craig and I still have contact, I think we always will!
So turns out this guy, I will refer to him just as JS, seems to be back in Johannesburg, and would like to meet up again! Hell yeah!
Thing is, what to do about Ray... See, Ray is a guy I met three weeks ago.
First guy since being single that I met off Manhunt, and we hit it off straight away. He is 30, same age as me, and the best looking 30yo I have ever seen. He is cute, he is friendly, and really a decent guy. Thing is, he hasn't got a permanent job, he hasn't got transport, and lives about 50km away (with his ex!!)... BUMMER!!! We've been seeing each other each weekend except for the last, and believe it or not, haven't shagged him yet! He did sleep over the first weekend, we went out that night to Babylon, had a great time, slept in each other's arms, was GREAT!, his warm sexy body next to mine... I think he could sense that I wanted to jump his bones right there and then, but miraculously I resisted the temptation... That's a new one for me!
I have been in an emotional turmoil over Ray ever since. For once I meet somebody that is really nice, really handsome, absolutely great, but then he hasn't got a steady income and I have to travel what feels like half way accross the world to get to him, only to have to go out somewhere every time because I don't want to meet the ex even though he says he will be fine with it (and I have to pay because he is broke).
Perhaps JS just came back into the picture for me to be able to make that decision? Surely Ray and I can just be friends? Who says JS wants more than friendship anyway? Am I ready for a relationship? Do I want a relationship? No harm in meeting up with JS again though, also a great guy.
Damn, OK, enough of my boring rambling ;) Sorry if I seem to drift off topic a bit, but just typing as I think of these things ;) That's the point isn't it?
Oh, nothing from Josh yet :(:(:( He has posted a new entry, but no response on the emails or on following me... :(
Well, lemme get back to reading Eddie's great blog (and probably wanking to some of his HOT posts too;))
Kisses!
Mxxx
As I do when I arrive home, I take of my work trousers, and read my emails sitting in my boxer briefs, which usually results in my getting hard over some hot pictures or something I received in my inbox. Today was a little different though...
I was pleasantly surprised to see that I had a comment on my previous post... Hmm, who could that be? At the speed of light, I opened my blogger, and found a post by a handsome young guy from Scotland. A second later I looked up at my followers, and sure as hell, THERE HE WAS! MY FIRST FOLLOWER! YAYYYYY!!!! :)
I started reading Eddie's blog, and boy oh boy, this boy can write some gripping stuff! As I do when discovering new blogs, I start reading from the first post, and then back as they were posted. His very first post had me gripped, and once again, a young guy, going through pretty must the same shit I had to endure in high school, I was just mesmerised.
Will be reading though his posts as time permits.
Anyway, so then I returned to reading my email, and found an email from my very good friend, Craig. The subject line had me curious immediately, and only read "FYI".
Hmmm, what could this be? My first though was that I got my ops back on irc. Nope wasn't that. He had posted me a conversation from an irc chat, from a nick called "playfun" hmmmm, who could that be!?!
Reading the email, the first line said : "
Hmmm, that's weird
So it turns out that this guy I sort of had a crush on about a year and a half ago (maybe 2 years) that had gone to Cape Town, had contacted Craig, and wanted to know if Craig still had contact with me.
Off course Craig and I still have contact, I think we always will!
So turns out this guy, I will refer to him just as JS, seems to be back in Johannesburg, and would like to meet up again! Hell yeah!
Thing is, what to do about Ray... See, Ray is a guy I met three weeks ago.
First guy since being single that I met off Manhunt, and we hit it off straight away. He is 30, same age as me, and the best looking 30yo I have ever seen. He is cute, he is friendly, and really a decent guy. Thing is, he hasn't got a permanent job, he hasn't got transport, and lives about 50km away (with his ex!!)... BUMMER!!! We've been seeing each other each weekend except for the last, and believe it or not, haven't shagged him yet! He did sleep over the first weekend, we went out that night to Babylon, had a great time, slept in each other's arms, was GREAT!, his warm sexy body next to mine... I think he could sense that I wanted to jump his bones right there and then, but miraculously I resisted the temptation... That's a new one for me!
I have been in an emotional turmoil over Ray ever since. For once I meet somebody that is really nice, really handsome, absolutely great, but then he hasn't got a steady income and I have to travel what feels like half way accross the world to get to him, only to have to go out somewhere every time because I don't want to meet the ex even though he says he will be fine with it (and I have to pay because he is broke).
Perhaps JS just came back into the picture for me to be able to make that decision? Surely Ray and I can just be friends? Who says JS wants more than friendship anyway? Am I ready for a relationship? Do I want a relationship? No harm in meeting up with JS again though, also a great guy.
Damn, OK, enough of my boring rambling ;) Sorry if I seem to drift off topic a bit, but just typing as I think of these things ;) That's the point isn't it?
Oh, nothing from Josh yet :(:(:( He has posted a new entry, but no response on the emails or on following me... :(
Well, lemme get back to reading Eddie's great blog (and probably wanking to some of his HOT posts too;))
Kisses!
Mxxx
Monday, April 12, 2010
No Followers...
Wow, today was a long day, and even though I got up depressed and tired this morning, it turned out not so bad after all.
Got some good news today that the future at work is looking a little better, and it looks like I'm able to get some help in to lighten the load slightly, so I guess all good intentions.
Josh posted a new entry, so that is good news, he is still alive and actively blogging, but shame, the poor boy's mac is not working. You see, if I had to win or inherit lots of money, i'd probably spend a good portion of it on people like him, and simply get him a new mac! I guess its for a charitable cause!?!
I still have no followers on my blog :( Being very sensitive and careful as to who I invite, so hopefully soon i'll make up my mind to ask some people to join :) Still no reply from Josh though, so I suppose his machine not working prevented him from getting my emails... Surely the boy has some good reason, or he thinks I'm a total nob...
No reply from mister Sydney guy either, but will keep hoping :)
Just had some left over mince and macaroni from yesterday, and it was even better today than it was then!
Deon hasn't received his new phone yet, so not sure when I'll get the iPhone. I know it's coming though, so I'm not too phased, the excitement is killing me none the less :)
My boss was telling me today that when he got his new laptop last week, it couldn't authorise that the laptop is a trusted machine for his iPhone apps, because in the area where he was on holiday there was no Internet signal, so it WIPED his entire iPhone, together with his apps!!! damn! Hope I never have that happen to me!
I'm still a little depressed and probably feeling a bit lonely too, and I think last night's insomnia spree is not really helping the mood, so heading off to bed early tonight to catch some sleep. Will probably pass out and sleep as if I've taken sleeping pills.
Tomorrow I can sleep a little later than usual, because I am going to a client, and the appointment is only for 9am, which is great!
Sleep well! (Don't know who I'm saying it to, but for anybody one day reading my blog, its for you - hope its Josh and Sydney guy soon ;))
Luv
Mxxx
Got some good news today that the future at work is looking a little better, and it looks like I'm able to get some help in to lighten the load slightly, so I guess all good intentions.
Josh posted a new entry, so that is good news, he is still alive and actively blogging, but shame, the poor boy's mac is not working. You see, if I had to win or inherit lots of money, i'd probably spend a good portion of it on people like him, and simply get him a new mac! I guess its for a charitable cause!?!
I still have no followers on my blog :( Being very sensitive and careful as to who I invite, so hopefully soon i'll make up my mind to ask some people to join :) Still no reply from Josh though, so I suppose his machine not working prevented him from getting my emails... Surely the boy has some good reason, or he thinks I'm a total nob...
No reply from mister Sydney guy either, but will keep hoping :)
Just had some left over mince and macaroni from yesterday, and it was even better today than it was then!
Deon hasn't received his new phone yet, so not sure when I'll get the iPhone. I know it's coming though, so I'm not too phased, the excitement is killing me none the less :)
My boss was telling me today that when he got his new laptop last week, it couldn't authorise that the laptop is a trusted machine for his iPhone apps, because in the area where he was on holiday there was no Internet signal, so it WIPED his entire iPhone, together with his apps!!! damn! Hope I never have that happen to me!
I'm still a little depressed and probably feeling a bit lonely too, and I think last night's insomnia spree is not really helping the mood, so heading off to bed early tonight to catch some sleep. Will probably pass out and sleep as if I've taken sleeping pills.
Tomorrow I can sleep a little later than usual, because I am going to a client, and the appointment is only for 9am, which is great!
Sleep well! (Don't know who I'm saying it to, but for anybody one day reading my blog, its for you - hope its Josh and Sydney guy soon ;))
Luv
Mxxx
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Insomnia
Not sure whether it is work that is stressing me out, or just too many new things for one weekend, but having a tad of insomnia again.
Got into bed and was rolling around for like an hour and a half, thinking about all the new things that I learnt this weekend, and all the things I have to do at work this week, and I just can't sleep...
So I decided to get up, make some horlicks with warm milk, and see if that helps, but here I am, playing Farmville and blogging again. Insomnia is a bitch!
Still no new post from Josh. The Sydney guy is probably still asleep, and I am wondering how I am going to get any followers on here, because I want people to see my blog, but also not just anybody...
There are one or two people I know would follow me, and was thinking to ask them. I see they are both online now... Well, will see how things go.
Well, night night everyone, I'm going to finish my horlicks and attempt to go sleep again.
Luv
Mxxx
Got into bed and was rolling around for like an hour and a half, thinking about all the new things that I learnt this weekend, and all the things I have to do at work this week, and I just can't sleep...
So I decided to get up, make some horlicks with warm milk, and see if that helps, but here I am, playing Farmville and blogging again. Insomnia is a bitch!
Still no new post from Josh. The Sydney guy is probably still asleep, and I am wondering how I am going to get any followers on here, because I want people to see my blog, but also not just anybody...
There are one or two people I know would follow me, and was thinking to ask them. I see they are both online now... Well, will see how things go.
Well, night night everyone, I'm going to finish my horlicks and attempt to go sleep again.
Luv
Mxxx
Dark Secrets
Here we go again, couldn't resist the temptation to post again.
Apart from really enjoying the blogging, I am finding it very stimulating, almost like therapy. I constantly find myself thinking about what next I'm going to blog, and then think about all the deep and dark secrets that I still have to tell... They will surface eventually.
In the meantime I have found another single gay boy's blog. It's this guy from Sydney, Australia, and in one of his posts I saw that he will be coming to South Africa soon, so I looked on his blog profile, and found his MSN address. Added it immediately, but he was not online, after all, it is the early morning hours there now. Hope he accepts and perhaps I get to meet him when he's here? That would be so cool!
I made macaroni and mince tonight for the fist time in ages, and it was very nice. I found some cheese in the fridge as well, and grated it over my serving.
Still been thinking about Josh constantly, and wish he would post a new entry on his blog. Even more than that, I hope that he follows me. Damn I am becoming a stalker!?! NOOO!!!!
No honestly, the way in which he writes his blog is just so real and honest, its like watching a soapie, you live yourself into his life, and almost become part of it, and you feel his emotions and what hes going through, even though he's way on the other side of the equator... I think the reason why I enjoy reading his blog so much is because he's going through exactly the things I went through when I was in early high school, having crushes on my best friends etc. I just hope his crush turns out better than mine did...
Well, I think it's time for me to still play a couple of minutes of Farmville and Cafe World on facebook and then head off to bed.
Maybe one day I'll be able to get Josh's MSN addy so we could chat in real time...
Mxxx
Apart from really enjoying the blogging, I am finding it very stimulating, almost like therapy. I constantly find myself thinking about what next I'm going to blog, and then think about all the deep and dark secrets that I still have to tell... They will surface eventually.
In the meantime I have found another single gay boy's blog. It's this guy from Sydney, Australia, and in one of his posts I saw that he will be coming to South Africa soon, so I looked on his blog profile, and found his MSN address. Added it immediately, but he was not online, after all, it is the early morning hours there now. Hope he accepts and perhaps I get to meet him when he's here? That would be so cool!
I made macaroni and mince tonight for the fist time in ages, and it was very nice. I found some cheese in the fridge as well, and grated it over my serving.
Still been thinking about Josh constantly, and wish he would post a new entry on his blog. Even more than that, I hope that he follows me. Damn I am becoming a stalker!?! NOOO!!!!
No honestly, the way in which he writes his blog is just so real and honest, its like watching a soapie, you live yourself into his life, and almost become part of it, and you feel his emotions and what hes going through, even though he's way on the other side of the equator... I think the reason why I enjoy reading his blog so much is because he's going through exactly the things I went through when I was in early high school, having crushes on my best friends etc. I just hope his crush turns out better than mine did...
Well, I think it's time for me to still play a couple of minutes of Farmville and Cafe World on facebook and then head off to bed.
Maybe one day I'll be able to get Josh's MSN addy so we could chat in real time...
Mxxx
iPhone
Here goes the third blog post for the day. I am soooo hooked!
Deon was saying that he is upgrading his phone contract, so he'll be getting a new phone, don't remember what he decided on, but he said I can get his iPhone!!! YAY! :P
I asked him whether Nico doesn't want the phone rather, and he sort of said that he doesn't, and I was feeling bad to just say 'hell yeah I want it of course', not to sound rude, but turns out he will give me the phone! I even offered to pay for it. Think I should give him something for it at least... He said I can pay them in kind. lol.
Want to go take a nap, because I'm so lazy today, but have been washing my bedding, so its all still wet. Lemme check, maybe the essentials of the bedding is dry already...
Probably going to blog again some later (after the nap) so watch this space :)
Already wanked so much this weekend I think if I wank any more my doodle will fall off!
Tired M
Mxxx
Deon was saying that he is upgrading his phone contract, so he'll be getting a new phone, don't remember what he decided on, but he said I can get his iPhone!!! YAY! :P
I asked him whether Nico doesn't want the phone rather, and he sort of said that he doesn't, and I was feeling bad to just say 'hell yeah I want it of course', not to sound rude, but turns out he will give me the phone! I even offered to pay for it. Think I should give him something for it at least... He said I can pay them in kind. lol.
Want to go take a nap, because I'm so lazy today, but have been washing my bedding, so its all still wet. Lemme check, maybe the essentials of the bedding is dry already...
Probably going to blog again some later (after the nap) so watch this space :)
Already wanked so much this weekend I think if I wank any more my doodle will fall off!
Tired M
Mxxx
Chinese food and nudism
The blog bug must have bitten me, because I just randomly think of things I want to blog about...
So, there are two things on my mind: Chinese food and nudism...
After spending the best part of yesterday reading Josh's blog I was in the mood for some chinese food. Yes, i'm a nob, but Josh was mentioning how they often eat chinese, and I haven't had for like ever, so spoiled myself last night with some. I just finished the left over sweet & sour pork :) If you ever read this, Josh, please don't think I'm mental ;)
So on Friday night, I was surfing the net, checking messages on manhunt and this new site a guy referred me to which is for nudists, or like they like to call it, naturists. Basically a website for the gay, lesbian and transgendered community of South Africa who are into naturism and nudism, and honestly, ever since I met Francois a couple of years ago, had a very keen interest in mudism myself.
Lost the track of my story a bit, but let me continue.. So on Friday night I was on this site, and had a very nice chat to a guy whom I won't name, but just refer to as T. T was telling me how he literally lives in the nude, and even his housekeeper has had to deal with the fact that he is naked permanently at home. Even his friends know that, and have to deal with it! Now I don't judge, really I don't, but that is a bit over the top for me. I mean when I am home alone, I love being nude, but the moment I know somebody is coming over, especially the housekeeper, I make sure I have my kit on! Depending on who it is, I might even dress up to look well fit! lol
Then T was telling me how he goes for nude walks! Around his suburb! and he was like I should join him on Saturday evening, and we'll go to the garage shop, have a juice there, and then walk back to his place. I was even stupid enough to give him my number, which at the time sounded like a great idea because it was making me hard, but in hind sight it was really stupid. So I have been having my phone off since yesterday morning so that he couldn't get hold of me. MENTAL! I saw he sent me a message on that site, because I got the notification email, but too scared to log on, because he will be able to see I am online... Thought of some silly excuse like "I forgot my cell phone charges at work and my battery was dead" or something. I know, I'm so screwed up!
Can't stop thinking about Josh's blog, and still keep wishing he reads mine some day... :$
So, there are two things on my mind: Chinese food and nudism...
After spending the best part of yesterday reading Josh's blog I was in the mood for some chinese food. Yes, i'm a nob, but Josh was mentioning how they often eat chinese, and I haven't had for like ever, so spoiled myself last night with some. I just finished the left over sweet & sour pork :) If you ever read this, Josh, please don't think I'm mental ;)
So on Friday night, I was surfing the net, checking messages on manhunt and this new site a guy referred me to which is for nudists, or like they like to call it, naturists. Basically a website for the gay, lesbian and transgendered community of South Africa who are into naturism and nudism, and honestly, ever since I met Francois a couple of years ago, had a very keen interest in mudism myself.
Lost the track of my story a bit, but let me continue.. So on Friday night I was on this site, and had a very nice chat to a guy whom I won't name, but just refer to as T. T was telling me how he literally lives in the nude, and even his housekeeper has had to deal with the fact that he is naked permanently at home. Even his friends know that, and have to deal with it! Now I don't judge, really I don't, but that is a bit over the top for me. I mean when I am home alone, I love being nude, but the moment I know somebody is coming over, especially the housekeeper, I make sure I have my kit on! Depending on who it is, I might even dress up to look well fit! lol
Then T was telling me how he goes for nude walks! Around his suburb! and he was like I should join him on Saturday evening, and we'll go to the garage shop, have a juice there, and then walk back to his place. I was even stupid enough to give him my number, which at the time sounded like a great idea because it was making me hard, but in hind sight it was really stupid. So I have been having my phone off since yesterday morning so that he couldn't get hold of me. MENTAL! I saw he sent me a message on that site, because I got the notification email, but too scared to log on, because he will be able to see I am online... Thought of some silly excuse like "I forgot my cell phone charges at work and my battery was dead" or something. I know, I'm so screwed up!
Can't stop thinking about Josh's blog, and still keep wishing he reads mine some day... :$
Inspired
So there I was, surfin the net, looking at some random shit, and stumbled upon this boy in th UK, Josh, who had been running a blog for about two odd years, and I was so seeing myself in this boy's shoes, only I experienced a lot about what he's going through about 15 years ago...
It inspired me to actively start blogging, preferably daily, but lets see how things go. I'm secretly hoping that he'd follow me.
Been reading his entire blog, right from his first post to his last, and can't wait for the next post from him! I am soooooo following him ;)
Apart from that, been listening to 94.7 since last night, right through the night, and for a change really enjoying the music. It's been an odd weekend for me. Apart from eating badly, drinking lots of juice, coffee and colddrink, wanking a lot, doing washing and reading Josh's blog, there really aint a lot to say.
Also sent Josh a personal message, hope I get a reply soon.
Oh well, lets see how things go :) Lemme go surf some more...
Mxxxx
It inspired me to actively start blogging, preferably daily, but lets see how things go. I'm secretly hoping that he'd follow me.
Been reading his entire blog, right from his first post to his last, and can't wait for the next post from him! I am soooooo following him ;)
Apart from that, been listening to 94.7 since last night, right through the night, and for a change really enjoying the music. It's been an odd weekend for me. Apart from eating badly, drinking lots of juice, coffee and colddrink, wanking a lot, doing washing and reading Josh's blog, there really aint a lot to say.
Also sent Josh a personal message, hope I get a reply soon.
Oh well, lets see how things go :) Lemme go surf some more...
Mxxxx
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